Trazodone Induced Dreams: The mob

 

December 21, 2021

No clue what was going on in this dream, last night. I was watching Addicted to Marriage; My 600 lb life; and Too Large before going to bed. I even stopped watching crime shows, especially anything on Discovery ID, before going to bed because the dreams can get weird. Nothing to do with gangsters and mobsters. Definitely confused the hell out of me. I seem to remember more dreams when they have people, I know in them.

Here is the parts, I remember. 

I was at my grandma's old house, with a few friends and their kids. Me and one of the kids, went for a walk. The kid told me, that his mama said she didn't care if I got covid walking with him, but he didn't need to get it. I was upset. When we tried to walk back in the house, a mobster stopped us by aiming a gun in our face. I don't know if he was going to shoot us or not. He didn't after we told him, we wanted to go in the house and see our family. He was upset because his friends doesn't consider him family and let us go. 

I went in the house to collect my kid but he wasn't there. No one knew where my child was. Apparently, I had left the house for a while. The friend was upset but I had a mob situation. 

Then some way, some how, I left my kid with a friend, to run errands, but got chased by the mob. They was looking for someone but Im not sure who.  

Another part:

The mob was after us in my grandma house. Me and a few relatives went to hide upstairs because it was more secure. I played dead and didn't get shot. It was hard because I still had to breath, while also scanning the room to see if everyone was ok. 

Another Part: 

I went over someone else's house and the gangsters came in the house, ransacking the place. I hide in the bathroom because of the secured door. But when other people came in the house, the door mysteriously disappeared and I could be seen. 

Another Part: 

Someone brought my grandma's house because they thought the family was dead, even though we was playing dead. Some of the family took on another identity. A tennis player figured out who one of us was because of an award. 

One of my relatives got on tv and was talking about a tennis championship, they won as a kid. The other tennis player realized they was the opponent and got upset because they thought my relative had died. 

The End: I hope I never have a dream like this again. I had strange dreams, like this before, but I haven't had them in a long time. 

Trazodone-Induced Dreams: Missing the Bus.

December 17, 2021

This was definitely one of the strangest dreams, I had, this week.

I had to take my youngest to school because he missed the school bus. I wasn't sure whether to take a rideshare or public transit to get him there. I went to sign him into the office, but there was not a late sign-in sheet. I had to bring Brad with me. 

The lobby then turned into a high school reunion, where I was hugging and greeting old classmates. While I was dealing with Kalen, the group headed to the park (where did it come from) across the street from the school. 

I also had to meet with the new nurse #4 to give her some meds for the month. Kalen was in the nurses office, as well. The nurse mixed his meds in with ranch powder mix and water. Kalen drunk the mix through a straw and loved it. I thought it was a strange way to dispense medication, but then again, it's Kalen and you have to get creative sometimes. 

I walked back outside, where a 9th grader was bringing his brother to school. He wanted to ask a question to the secretary. Since his brother missed the bus, He also missed his bus to a field trip and wanted to know what to do next. The security guard did not want to hear the 9th graders question and wanted him to leave the school. I also was asked to leave when I tried to ask the same question. 

Now, Brad was missing. Where was Brad? He was at the park with the high school reunion, jumping in the bounce house. I grabbed my kid and we headed to the bus stop. I had an appt and needed to head back home to take a bath, then catch the bus. Or do I catch an rideshare, even though I don't have enough money to do that, and head home and take a bath. Maybe just head to the appt, regardless of hygiene. 

The public bus stop turned into my grandma's house, where I used to catch the school bus. I apparently also had some craft supplies, set up outside, and was grabbing some to take home with me. I also needed a truck to pack up the majority of the supplies to take home. I had rainbow glitter, shoe slime (whatever that is), and other bottles of colorful stuff. I then woke up to get Kalen ready for school. 

Trazdone-Induced Dreams: Attack of the Ex

 

December 12, 2021

I had my first Trazodone nightmare, two nights ago. An ex, who lives in another state, wanted me to testify for him, in court, saying he wasn't there, doing whatever he wasn't supposed to be doing. I live in Texas. He lives in GA. I also had an appointment or something, I was doing the same day. If the offense or defense lawyers did any research, they would realize, I wasn't in the state and I was busy at the time, but the ex was persistent. 

He traveled to Texas to convince me to lie for him in court. He didn't care I would be locked up and away from the kids. One of which, he did not even ask about. He tried choking and strangling me. He tried dragging me onto the train tracks, while the train was coming. He tried to harm my niece. He was seriously angry, I would not lie for him and risk my freedom for someone, who does not care about me. 

Both me and my niece tried to escape from him and thought we was free. Nope, he found out where we lived and banged on the door hard, shooting a gun in the air. The niece was able to escape through the window, outside to a small park, where our other relatives was. I wasn't able to squeeze all my belly through the window. 

The small park had my cousin, Chad, who is in college; his grandmother (my great aunt, who passed away, a few years ago). The park had trees and the clouds was bright-white, like we was in Heaven or something. 

A year of new old firsts

 

2021: Just when you thought 2020 was interesting, meet 2021. A lot of things, have happened-some of which, I'm not ready to talk about, just yet. The past few months, things have gotten back to pre-covid, sort of normal. Some things--I needed other people to remind me to do again because I got used to not doing them--if that makes sense. 

The Laundry Room

First, I thought I could use the laundry room again. My case manager assigned me a task to wash my bigger blankets in the laundry room. Last year, I had to stop using the laundry room because both of my kids would run off, while I am loading up clothes. Since the laundry rooms are in  the middle of  parking lots, this is not a good idea, so I stopped going. My apartment is within a few minutes walk of three laundry rooms. 

but first, I needed a new laundry card. I let a neighbor use, my old card, and never got it back. Since I wasn't able to use the facilities, I wasn't too worried about asking for it back. I also been noticing the laundry room, I mostly used, has not been opened lately. I walked to the office to get a new card and was told, the machine did not have any cards. I had to wait for a new shipment to arrive. 

I showed up again to ask about the cards and was told, the office is not ordering any new cards because of the sale of the complex. The staff also said they are not fixing any broke machines and some laundry rooms are permanently closed.  We do not have to officially move until October 2022. How are residents supposed to do laundry? I have a portable washer (Thank you very much to the lovely lady, who helped me get one), but it only washes bigger items. 

The spin side is too small for my bigger comforters. I guess they will be air-dried or I will use SudShare to launder them, when I have extra monies. Still can't find anyone, who knows how to fix the belts on my portable dryer. Maybe if I can get a job, I can just buy a new one. 

The Walk Back to Kalen's School

I thought about this post, after taking my first bus ride and walk back to Kalen's school to drop off medication. I have been using my mom or niece or a rideshare to take me, since the covid-times began. I gave up riding the bus, also during the pandemic because of my oldest's eloping issues. I definitely was tired of chasing him; pulling him back from running into the road; and having police involvement. 

The nurse needed meds. My oldest was not with me. My youngest was at school. 10 minute bus ride. 15-20 minute walk. Sonic, McDonalds, Burger King, and Wendy's are in the area so I can grab me some food, on the way back to the bus stop. I checked the bus app to see how many tickets, I had left, and hopped the bus. 

The walk back felt different but some things remained the same. No sidewalks. No bus stop on the other side of the highway, so I don't have to navigate across the highway.  I have been living in Greenspoint since 2018. I guess everything will change after Kalen goes to intermediate. 😂😂😂

Had to navigate around water, vehicles, and mud. The bridge from the bus stop, to the highway and school-also was wider and had new decorative pieces though. Finally, the bus stop needs seating, especially when I have waited up to an hour, to go back home, in the past. If you miss it, then you just have to stand and wait or sit on the ground. Maybe bring a folding chair with you (Good idea Stacie).

The Walk Back to McDonalds and Other Food Places

A Facebook Friend (Thank you Rain) reminded me, I can walk to Mcdonalds again. I haven't walked to McDonalds, in a while, because it is also an Autism trap. Don't need kids running off, while we wait to cross the highway. I can get some breakfast, after I put Kalen on the bus. I also have started walking back to Family Dollar; the local, non-cheap grocery store; plus the Jack in the Box and McDonalds near the mall, for the first time. 

I thought the walk would take longer, but it took as long as walking to the highway McDonalds, which opened up new possibilities for me, if I wanted to walk to other stores and restaurants versus calling Uber Eats or Grubhub or Postmates. I have ordered many times from Montereys and Pollo Campero, over the years. Maybe I could get a part-time job in the area, provided the job offers flexible scheduling. I even walked home from the doctor, the other day, because I didn't feel like riding 2 busses, with a stop or two, to the .99 and Jack in the Box. 

Riding the Bus again

I started back riding the bus again, even with kids. Brad even crossed the scary bridge to get to church, without walking off. I have done, a few focus groups, around Houston, to earn extra income. The pandemic has taught me, I need people. I may be an introvert but I need to socialize with other humans, besides my kids. Nothing like staying at home with semi-verbal kids, for 10 days, with no one else to talk to, besides people on the internet. I hope a shut down never happens again, but glad I have access to the crisis line. 

2 Services at Church

I was happy when special needs re-opened back up, at church, last year, but we could only attend one service to allow more kids to attend. I love virtual Sunday School but there are more distractions at home--kids, kicking the walls and doors; asking for snacks; crawling all over me; kicking me in the face and neck. This year, we could attend both services, in person again. YAYYAYAYAYAYYAY. I was happy to see my people. Of course, I had a few setbacks and haven't been able to attend like I wanted to. Rain is a hinderance because I use a wagon for Kalen and he doesn't like rain on his head. Both me and Kalen had cold and congestion, which took us out for 2 weeks. Don't want to get other people sick. 

Other Firsts:

• Completed a customer service experience trainee program through ClimbHire. ClimbHire will also help me get a job. 
• Completed a healthy families virtual class through Avance Frameworks. They gave some nice incentives for completion. 
• Of course, I was diagnosed with depression, in August, and now taking Trazodone and Lexapro.

Thank you and have a blessed day

Trazadone-Induced Dreams: The Voice and Truth of God.

 

12/7/2021

Last Night, I fell asleep watching Hoarders, between 10 and 11 pm, CST. I was super tired of completing a project for a class in software development, I'm taking. I took my Trazodone (50mg) earlier plus some CBD for sleep, because I really needed to sleep. 

Eventually, I had a dream, a dream, not like any other dream, because they are Trazadone-induced. I had strange and vivid dreams, in the past, but none like these. 

I was dreaming about the Masked Singer. The judges was Tim Allen, some woman, and Dick Van Dyke. It was time for a singer, to be unmasked, and one of her clues, was she was the voice of God. 

This lead Dick van Dyke and Tim Allen to go into a long monologue about the voice and truth of our heavenly father. It wasn't too preachy. They included bible verses. The audience was enthralled and wasn't offended. 

Once the monologue was finished, the singer with the deep voice of God, was revealed, and it was Eartha Kitt, who sung a short song, and then went for coffee in the sound booth. 

When I woke up, David Jeremiah was on A&E, discussing the truth of God. I watched a bit of him and Joyce Meyer before passing back out. 

I do wish my oldest was more verbal. Brad also takes Trazadone. This may explain his screaming and laughing in his sleep. 

The Wonder of Creation by Louie Giglio Review (Momentum Influencer Network).

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The wonder of creation

I read the Wonder of Creation, by Louie Giglio, in exchange for honest review from the Momentum Influencer Network. The book is a children's devotional book, with over 100 devotionals. I received a hardback copy. 

The book features illustrations and photography. Each devotional also features a scientific fact or an activity for kids to explore their faith; a short bible verse, and a prayer. The book also can be incorporated into a homeschool STEM curriculum or bedtime reading. The scientific facts include info about space, Earth, animals, and people. Giglio does provide, on page 5, the page numbers for each of the facts. 

I wanted this to be able to spread the love of God to my kids. With Kalen especially, books needs a lot of pictures with minimal words. He likes pointing to the pics and identifying what's in the pic, either saying the actual word or asking, "What's that?". With Brad, things also need to be short and simple. 

The book is easy to read. It also comes with a built-in ribbon bookmark. 

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